Today was my first day without the help of my husband. Ahh. Not fun. Joshua was being his normal loud self. I lost it. Then I apologized to him. He tried to run away from me. I followed him. He kept trying to push me away, then I put the baby up to Joshua's cheek. Joshua melted and kissed him. Matthew calmed him down. He said the baby was cute. Matthew started crying and Joshua started laughing. Then Joshua asked me if I could leave him alone in his room. My husband will be happy that I've been doing laundry and dishes all day. It's not spotless, but I've made a dent. Matthew has been sleeping for like 3 hours.