I found ants in the cupboard today.
This was the straw that broke the camels back. I started cleaning everything out, and I just started crying. Joshua was at the table, playing " Office" with pennies. He heard me sniffling, and said, " Who's that crying in my office? I didn't know that anyone could cry in my office." Sweet baby!
I sat down with him.
Me- Joshua, you know when you don't want to do something, but you know you have to do it anyway?
Joshua- Yes, mommy?
Me- Well, mommy feels like that right now.
Joshua- Why mommy?
Me- Because, I just want to be at home with you and Caleb.
Joshua- You are at home with us right now, mommy.
Me- I know.
I asked him to pray with me, and he did. I prayed that God would help us to see that He is in control of our lives, and that He would help us to remember that He always takes care of us no matter what.
I didn't want Joshua to see me crying, and not explain why I was crying. He's very smart, and I don't want him to think that I'm not human or that I don't have those emotions. But I also didn't want him to worry about me, so that's why I prayed with him. He seemed to be o.k. after that.
I've been wanting to stop doing daycare for a while. I have mixed emotions about it. I know that God gave me the kids to watch. I know that He provides for our family in ways we can't even imagine. I don't want to complain. I am very grateful for everything He has given us. I just need to lean on Him at all times, and trust in Him. Keep us in your prayers. Thanks.

My brother Philip and my new sister-in-law Sarah successfully got hitched last Sat. I cried when I saw Philip crying when Sarah was walking down to greet him. Then I looked at Sarah, and she looked like an Angel. She is very beautiful even on a normal day. But this day she looked exceptionally beautiful. I cried some more. The bridesmaid's dresses were dark red, and flowing to the ground. The groomsmen wore black tuxes and red vests. My husband, my son Joshua and I were all in the wedding. Joshua looked sooo handsome, I just wanted to kiss him. My husband was also extremely handsome. What is it about a tux or a suit on your husband that makes your knees give out? Bob doesn't need to wear a suit or a tux for me to have those feelings for him. He's handsome everyday!

My sister Kandy and Bother-in-law Kip, have left from So. CA to go back to their home in Ohio. I told her on the last night that I saw her that I wasn't going to let them go back. They have to stay here forever now. She laughed, but I know she didn't want to go either. We had a nice Birthday Party for Kandy at the Olive Garden. It was good to see everyone there, (except for my brother Bryan, he had to work). Sorry Bryan! You were there in spirit. We got to go out with Bryan and his girlfriend Kristin after the wedding, along with Kip and Kandy. We went to Claim Jumpers. I told the waitress that it was Kandy's Birthday, and they sang to her. So, Bryan did get to go to one of Kandy's Birthday's. Her actual Birthday is on Aug 15. She's gonna be the big 3-0! I can't believe it, I'm only two years behind. You don't look a day over 25, don't worry Kandy! No wrinkles, no gray hair. Unbelievable. God has blessed you with Grandma Bette's features, (God bless her soul). Grandma Maxine looks pretty good for her age also.

I want to send a special thank you to Kristin for doing all of the girls hair before the wedding. It turned out awesome! I also want to thank Philip and Sarah for having us in the wedding, it was so beautiful. Thank you to my sister-in-law Christine for coming over to my house at 7a.m. to do mine and Kandy's make-up. So pretty! Alright, I'm done with the Oscar moment.

So, I went to the bachelorette party. It was pretty cool. I probably should've went back to my mom's house to get my boys after dinner though. They ended up spending the night there. Bob and I didn't get home until 1 a.m. and everyone else followed us to our house. I made some Midori Sours and it was all good, my friend. Everyone left around 2:30a.m. I think when everyone, including the girls, started talking about different kinds of poop, it was time to go home. I get kinda silly when I have a few to drink. I try really hard not to talk when I've had a few. Because I know as soon as I do, I'll just start giggling for no apparent reason at all. Anyhow, we all had a blast, and we can't wait for my Brother Philip's Wedding this Sat. I'm so gonna cry : (

You are Bubbles that fun loving girl everyone wants
to be around, you are very outgoing and
optimistc and kind to others! people just love
you, and think u r very cute. sometimes u can
be a little stubbern and selfish but not very
often. your friends love u and u can easly be
the center of attation! keep it up!


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I think I have pre-conceved notions when it comes to the music that Bob enjoys. Bob and Dave B. were watching the "Wilco" video the other night at our house. I had never even wanted to listen to that band. I don't know why. I didn't even give them a chance. I think it might be because, when I walked in the room, the main singer of the band was throwing-up in the toilet back stage right before he was going to start his concert. I was thoroughly disgusted. I got out of the room as fast as I could. Then, I yelled down the stairs at Bob, "How can you watch that! Turn it off! It's disgusting!" He says back up the stairs, "You don't even know what you're talking about. You came in the room right in the middle of the movie. It's not what you think Karlene. Just come and watch it with us, this band is so awsome." I went to bed. For next three nights he finished watching it. I stayed up and watched it with him. Bob, I'm so sorry for pre-judging the music you listen to. I'm listening to "Wilco" as I'm writing this post! I had no idea what this band was about, or how good their music was until I actually sat down and listened. They're just awsome! I especially like the stuff he sang before he got into "Wilco." It's kinda country sounding. I promise I won't turn your music off or down anymore. I think it hit me when Joshua and Caleb kept on saying to me, "Mommy, why don't you like daddy's music?" or Joshua said, "Mommy, when we're in the car, why do you always turn daddy's music off?" It broke my heart, and I realized that I didn't know why I did those things. It made no sense. I don't like it when someone comes up to me and says, "You know what, I don't like what your listening to, I'm going to turn it off now." I'm going to stop being a fuddy duddy about music choices. I'm going to branch out and start listening to Bob's music more. Today, I was cleaning the downstairs, and I put a Beatles CD on. Both Josh and Caleb turn and look at me, shocked. Caleb says, "Mommy, you like daddy's music now? Hurray!" Then they start dancing around the living room like little wild banchies.

O.k. I'm back people! Did ya miss me? Nah, I didn't think so. Well, for the next two weeks, I'm gonna be a real busy bee. Friday, I will be attending the Bachelorette party for Sarah, and Bob will be attending the Bachelor party for my Bro Philip. We're all in the wedding next Sat. except for Caleb. He's still too little I think. This Sat. Kandy and Kip are coming! Yay! Can't wait!