I have been watching home videos of Joshua and Caleb when they were babies. So, please excuse me, I'm feeling a little sentimental right now. Everyone keeps on asking me when I'm going to have another baby. Honestly, I really don't know. If you were to ask me that on Caleb's 2nd B-day, I would've promptly answered you like this, I would like to get pregnant in Sept. and have the baby in June. It would of course be a boy, because why would anyone want to put a poor little girl into that mix. Now, I'm leaving every last detail up to the Man upstairs. I don't really know if I want another baby right now. If I said that in a crowded, noisy room, full of people that knew me very well, you would hear the sound of crickets. Because anyone that truly knows me, knows that I am that baby crazy lady. It's true, I love babies, and babies love me. Everywhere I go, if I see a baby, I gravitate towards it, and it in turn, looks and smiles at me. That makes my day. This information however does not necessarily mean that I want another baby right now.
I think that my sister is baby crazy also. If we're together and we see a baby, both of us have goo-goo eyes. As adorable as they are though, she knows that she doesn't want any of her own. I respect her for knowing what she wants, and what she doesn't want. She's not scared to tell you that either. I wish that I were more like her in that area of my life. I am just now realizing that I can make up my own mind about what I like, and what I don't like. That may sound kind of silly to most people. But, I am a typical 2nd born. A lot of advice that has been given to me over the years, I didn't really understand until recently. I don't know why it took me this long to get it. Maybe I had to find things out on my own. Go through some hard things, and learn my lessons by going through those hard things. I am not perfect by any means. And I am sure to go through many more hard times in my lifetime. I know that my Father sustains me though, through it all. He holds me up at all times, even when I'm doubtful. I am so blessed by whom God has put in my life. I have a huge extended family, a wonderful, loving husband, and two sweet, handsome little boys. I am also blessed by all of my friends.